I’m taking this picture with me next time I drag myself to the hairdresser. :3
The day is coming when a single carrot, freshly observed, will set off a revolution. -Paul Cezanne
Hi tumblr, I don’t post much here at the moment, but I’m still adamantly striving to be healthy. I’ve lost a little interest in cooking, tracking my weight & calories, and I’ve really hit a wall with running, but I’m still eating well, doing strength and cardio at the gym 3-4 times a week, and making sure I’m educated about food.
My biggest hurdle lately is chocolate, which is my only ‘all or nothing’ vice. I kicked the habit last sunday, hopefully for a long time to come, it really is the only food I have absolutely no control over.
It’s a slow progress, but I’m overcoming my HORRIBLE setback :)
I just went running for the first time in two weeks and it was horrible. Two weeks of eating crap and I felt physically sick trying to run a measly mile. I got home and started to cry.
I’ve spent the last two weeks hating myself, it’s exhausting and I’m tired of it. I’m going to run again tomorrow, probably cry again, but I will not cave in to the junk food that makes me feel this way.
tl;dr get over myself omg
I hit a plateau four months ago, and it’s slowly driving me crazy.
I do everything as healthily as possible. I don’t weigh myself, I exercise, I can differentiate between healthy, nutrient rich food and crap. I try not to compare myself to others, I try not to hate my appearance.
And I never seemed to feel healthier or more active. I can run a mile, but not much more. I can use the gym, but I’m hopelessly inflexible. I eat healthy, good food, and don’t feel the benefit.
That’s what I was torturing myself with. I hit a wall, and last week refused to run, refused to go to the gym, barely touched vegetables, despite liking all of these things, and ate junk for a whole week. HUGE quantities of chocolate, to the point where I was going to sleep feeling sick. For a WHOLE WEEK. And every time I tried to stop I couldn’t.
BUT I learnt from it. My body feel slow, sickly and exhausted. I thought I hadn’t seen any changes or benefit because I get tired a lot and can’t lose weight from my stomach. But that’s nothing compared to how I feel this week.
I never make particularly personal posts, but I needed to get this out.
When I’m feeling dispirited, giving up takes a physical toll that just isn’t worth it.
“We live in a society where people are always looking for the next sports drink, energy bar, or cup of coffee that will give them the extra edge to get through the day, But it may be that lacing up your tennis shoes and getting out and doing some physical activity every morning can provide that spark of energy that people are looking for.”